Another year

Yesterday  i spent my 33th birthday with loved ones. It was a good day! With a full heart i step softly and relaxed into a new year. Wish you all a happy New Year's Eve!

Sweet dreams

Inspiration for our new bedroom!

Basket from Ferm Living for blankets

Pillow from Maartje van den Noort by Slaapaap

Ingrid's bedroom from Wood Wool Stool (photo by Wood Wool)

Wall fixture Klimoppe with paper by studie Snowpuppe

Safe haven

This weekend i am cocooning at home and literally try not to leave our front door at all. Meanly because there is a paper deadline coming for my Msc so i have to study, but it is also because there are passing thousands of people our big (formerly show)window. Normally, we live at a quiet shopping street but now our inner city is transformed in a Christkindlmarket, a popular tourist attraction.
I do love the intimacy with family and friends, but this outdoor market is to me christmas craziness. Not my cup of tea. So i am gladly hiding my face in my books & enjoy being home.

Birdhouse

Oh our little Birdhouse from designer Klaas Kuiken makes my day! A beautiful nest place on top of our urban place.

Tulips

Fresh Tulips from my love, a great starter of the day.
He made us beautiful oak cupboards for in the kitchen, j'adore!

Swimming against the tide

Oh boy, it has been a while since i posted a message here.

I could say i was busy with collecting data for my Msc thesis

I could say i was overwhelmed by work

I could say i was celebrating life and birthday's of loved ones

I could say i was back into runners world making 20 miles a week

I could say times flies when you are busy making plans

I could say i am ok with the plan of starting a fertility trajectory this spring

But the truth is

I circled around & around my blog

because i am avoiding my inner self.

Now writing this post i realize

I've started resisting

resisting some of the things that grief taught me to soften into.

When i was younger

the path was so clearly laid out before me.

Now there is no clear road

there is no direction pointer

that tells me " Now you do A, then B, then C".

It is all about owning your own transitions.

It's time to reconnect to my inner self

to be thankful no matter how tough life gets

because I still get this chance to live it!

Flowers at Villa Augustus